Chapter 44

After a few days of adjustment, the feeling of shyness in my heart has lessened considerably. Fortunately, my son still clings to me as much as before. Besides the occasional desire and curiosity in his eyes when he looks at me, there isn't any trace of disdain, which puts my mind somewhat at ease. At the very least, my son hasn't shown any disgust or negative impressions towards me. My son is my entire world; if he were to become annoyed with me, or if I were to堕落 [degrade] myself, I truly don't know what motivation I would have left to keep living.…