Chapter 43

"I couldn't sleep last night. I sat on the sickbed on the first floor the entire night. I didn't dare to face this reality. I was seen by my son. Will she guess what's in my heart? My face is burning, my heart is filled with extreme shyness, even to the point where I feel so ashamed I want to kill myself. I have always played the role of a loving mother in front of my son. I know that parents are a child's first teachers, and my conduct directly influences my son, so I have always led by example to set a good model for him. But I never thought that my own momentary carelessness and indulgence would end up harming my son. At this moment, I believe a mark and a stain have been left in my son's heart. I originally was still thinking about how to correct my son's distorted ideas and impulses during puberty, but instead of correcting them, I have deepened them.…